cameron paul croteau

Hello Chris and Candy,

I remember after only knowing you two for a few short months, seeing you both at the elliot outside the NICU, how sad to hear of your and Cameron's struggles. I can tell you one thing for sure i am so prous and just in awe of how mature amazing and positive you 2 have stayed.  You took every struggle head on, as did Cameron because of your strength.  I know he is so proud of you both every day, and he is with you.  Stay strong you both have so many people who love you.  I will keep you all in my prayers.

Love Michelle

Cameron, well it was 2 years ago today i saw you last alive. I wish i had spent more time with you on this day....but i was too busy trying to get ready for you grammy coming here. i  know you had a good day with kristen. I really miss you so much. You gave mommy so much joy in life. I always knew I wanted to be your mommy. I just didnt realize how much my life was going to change the day you were born. Each day of your life was a blessing. Im so thankful for all 3 yrs & 3 mos with you my sweet boy. I would never change that. I do wish we could have more time together. most of all i wish you could have met your siblings. nicholas can now say your name. we moved him into your room. i hope you dont mind. but there just is no other place. he really likes your bed. although he isnt aloud to sleep in it. he is too little for it right now. well mommy needs to go wake up your siblings from there naps. i love & miss you so much baby boy. there isnt a day or moment im not thinking about you. have fun in heaven. eat lots of ice cream my lovey boy. love mommy

Cameron, I wanted to send you lovies in heaven today. Im missing you alot tonight. your uncle tom & aunty Jenn are about to have their first baby. Mommy is so excited i can hardly breath....but it scares me so much right now. it makes me think about the morning you were born. it was so scary & so sad. cameron my sweet boy i love & miss more then words can ever express. no one can understand this kind of pain except another parent of an angel like you. I hope you ok. your brother & sister are doing good. molly looks just like you!!!!! werid huh? nicholas kisses your pictures everyday. its so sweet. i know he never met you but i think he misses you baby boy. well please watch over aunty jenn, uncle tom, & your new baby cousin while he is being born. I dont know if mommy can handle anymore hard things in life. i love you more then anything on the universe. good night my sweet baby boy. love your mommy!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                   life and death beginning to end.

no goodbyes just wonder why's?

quick and fast no pain to last.

it was done and over in seconds.

tears were shed, hearts were broken

you left with no explanation.

Never to be forgotten

our love for you will always stay.

You look upon us from a better place

we look up and see your face.

our hearts are with you and yours with us.

Look back at the days you always made us smile.

no one could forget you not even for awhile.

Memories flash pver and over.

Tears flowed and wil never stop

you're in gods hands now

we'll all be with you someday, somehow

rededicated to cameron paul croteau

Love to chri, candy, nicholas, and molly!!

Cameron, my sweet lovey boy! today marks one year i last kissed & hugged you while you were alive. mommy misses you so much my lil ray of sunshine. i never truely thought i would have to go on living with out you in my arms. the pain is greater then anything i ever imagined. im empty inside & out. i just wish you would have given my some kind of warning the end was near. i wouldnt have been gone all day...to only spend a few hours with you....the last few hours ever. no mommy would have done some really fun stuff & we would have kissed & cuddled til we were both blue in the cheeks. i know mommy is really sad right now..but its only because i miss you so much. i wont be sad forever i promise that to you baby boy. you showed me more in 3 yrs then i will ever be shown in a life time. i treasured every single moment with you...even the bad ones. im at peace in some ways that you dont have to live like you did.....but it doesnt make the pain go away. mommy will stay brave just like you taught me. i will teach nicholas & your new sister molly the save bravery you taught me. you will never ever be forgotten, i will make sure everyone knows you thru all of us!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cameron my sweet lil man. i love you more then anything in this entire world. sending you extra hugs & kisses to you in heaven. run free baby boy....i cant wait for the day when i can hold, kiss, hug, touch, you again. until then i will care for your siblings just as well as i did with you. Love your mommy

Wow Thank-you so much for sharing Cameron with us. What a inspiration to us all as to how we should live our lives with or without disablities. I love handicapped children, I think they know God's plan more than we will ever understand. They are so content and happy just to be alive when so many of us complain able the little things in life. You and your family are such a inspiration to me. My little angel tried to go to sleep and spread her wings but I woke up before she had gone. She was at childrens hospital for 24 hours before she passed in my arms to unknown causes. I think God has placed so many of us angel mommies in each other's lives as a sorce of strengnth and to count our blessing along with our losses. I would do it all over again just to hold her one last time as I am sure you would with your little Cameron. I too wish I knew that she was leaving, I was so busy that day but had I known I never would have worried about cleaning the house, shopping, ect. I would have spent the day playing with her to hear her giggle one last time and to see her sweet little smile. I never would have put her down as I'm sure wyou wouldn't have either but that must have been in God's plan that we may never be able to understand. I do know oone day we will all see our children again. We just have to endure the memories and tears until then. And yes we do have many good times, I'm just sad today not only for myself but for all those angel mommies who have had to say good bye too soon. You are in my heart and prayers and my  God bless you and your family and give you all the happiness you deserve. What a little fighter your little guy was and you should be so proud of him for all his obsticles in life and the lessons he has tought so many others. Hw was truely a beautiful little guy! Thanks Candy and may God's Peace be with you!

 

 

There is special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.
He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.
He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love.

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Hi Candy,

I got your message from manchester moms and wanted to give my condolences to you and your family. He looks like a sweet lil boy who must have been very happy but at least you know you will always have your own little angel to watch over you and your family. They say everything happens for a reason even though we may not like the outcome of it. You have the strength of a thousand women and I believe you'll be ok. I may not know you yet but I believe it to be true. My prayers are with you and your family.