CAMERON, I REALLY MISS YOU EXTRA TODAY. YOUR ALWAYS ON MY MIND & IN MY HEART. YOU WILL FOREVER BE MOMMA'S LIL BUNNY BOY. LOVE MOMMA

Cameron!!!!! Lately ive been really missing you. each day that passes, is another day you have been gone. I think sometimes im "ok" with you not being in my arms or I think gosh there is no way i could begin to miss you anymore then I do in this moment. but i do baby boy. mommy's heart is forever broken. I try to be positive, not cry, & just be brave. sometimes mommy's cant always be brave though. lately Im not feeling so brave, im feeling very weak & over-welmed. I wish in more ways then one that i could just snuggle or cuddle with you one last night, smell your yummy hair, or anything for that matter. then reality sinks in, I cant bring you back. your sibllings dont know you, that also makes me so sad. although nicholas adores you. he tells everyone about his big brother cameron in heaven. its so sweet. Anyways, today is your best little friend kenneth's birthday. it seems impossible that he is now 6 yrs old. you & kenneth had a bond like iver never seen. it brings tears to my eyes when i think of the first time you met eachother. how content you both were, like you had known eachother for 100 yrs. or the day he taught you how to spit on mommy. aww so many amazing memories that i cherish each & every single day. i know your probably free & safe....but im your mommy & i miss you lil man. keep mommy happy. i need your strength right now for life. love your mommy

Cameron, Like everyday your always on my mind. I miss you mor then words could ever describe. my whole body hurts from the pain of loosing you. We stayed at the ocean in memory of you the last 2 nights. It was breath taking. I felt your presence with me the whole time. I tried to be really brave & not cry. Sometimes when I do cry....it feels like your wiping away my tears or maybe its because Im out of tears. who knows. Im beyond greatful you chose me to be your mommy! I saw lots of little signs made out of differet materials, with many sayings on them. daddy & i will buy them all, just because they remind us of your sweet lil face. we walked by the old time photo booth....i just wanted to lay down & cry. you had such a great time in there.....but to be there, is so hard for me. Please protect mommy & all those around me so they dont have to feel this kind of pain. your thomas blanket brings me a little bit of comfort to sleep at night. well little man. mommy will forever miss you til we meet in heaven someday. i love you with my whole heart & soul. love your mommy!

Cameron, Im really missing you tonight sweet boy. somedays my heart just aches & i feel like i cant breath because missing you is so intense. your the light in my life. since you left i feel like there is a very dark cloud over my head. i do think of the happy times & wonderful memories we made while you were here on earth with us. you are a true miracle. im so proud and honored to call you my son & to have become your mother. i cant believe halloween is a lil over a month away. it was our favorite holiday with you. it was son fun to dress you up in those silly costumes. i went to target today & i just wanted to cry...all the cute halloween socks were in the $1 bins....remember getting new cute socks from the bins. i do enjoy shopping with your siblings...but today just wasnt happy for me. i know im entitled to have hard days and today has just been a hard day. i wish i could smell, feel you, or just see you. can you believe mommy and daddy will be getting married in less then 3 wks. holy cow. dont worry you will play a big part in the wedding! i hope your in my dreams tonight. i often wonder what you would look like right now. mommy cant believe you would 6 yrs old right now. thats totally nutz. nicholas loves you so much. i think you had a strong bond with him when nicky was in my belly. its like you guys have met before. he talks about you all the time. it makes mommies heart just melt. well sweet boy i love you so much. words dont even express the love i have for you. good night baby boy. love mommy :)

Hello Chris and Candy,

I remember after only knowing you two for a few short months, seeing you both at the elliot outside the NICU, how sad to hear of your and Cameron's struggles. I can tell you one thing for sure i am so prous and just in awe of how mature amazing and positive you 2 have stayed.  You took every struggle head on, as did Cameron because of your strength.  I know he is so proud of you both every day, and he is with you.  Stay strong you both have so many people who love you.  I will keep you all in my prayers.

Love Michelle

We never got to meet u, and we just want to say we wish we could have!! Hope you are looking down from heaven and smiling, because it's obvious that you were deeply loved in your short time here, and I truly believe that you are in a much better place! hugs.....


                                                  Jessie and Dara :)

Wow Thank-you so much for sharing Cameron with us. What a inspiration to us all as to how we should live our lives with or without disablities. I love handicapped children, I think they know God's plan more than we will ever understand. They are so content and happy just to be alive when so many of us complain able the little things in life. You and your family are such a inspiration to me. My little angel tried to go to sleep and spread her wings but I woke up before she had gone. She was at childrens hospital for 24 hours before she passed in my arms to unknown causes. I think God has placed so many of us angel mommies in each other's lives as a sorce of strengnth and to count our blessing along with our losses. I would do it all over again just to hold her one last time as I am sure you would with your little Cameron. I too wish I knew that she was leaving, I was so busy that day but had I known I never would have worried about cleaning the house, shopping, ect. I would have spent the day playing with her to hear her giggle one last time and to see her sweet little smile. I never would have put her down as I'm sure wyou wouldn't have either but that must have been in God's plan that we may never be able to understand. I do know oone day we will all see our children again. We just have to endure the memories and tears until then. And yes we do have many good times, I'm just sad today not only for myself but for all those angel mommies who have had to say good bye too soon. You are in my heart and prayers and my  God bless you and your family and give you all the happiness you deserve. What a little fighter your little guy was and you should be so proud of him for all his obsticles in life and the lessons he has tought so many others. Hw was truely a beautiful little guy! Thanks Candy and may God's Peace be with you!

 

 

There is special Angel in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I wanted him
but where God wanted him to be.
He was here but just a moment
like a night time shooting star.
And though he is in Heaven
he isn't very far.
He touched the heart of many
like only an Angel can do.
I would've held him every minute
if the end I only knew.
So I send this special message
to the Heaven up above.
Please take care of my Angel
and send him all my love.

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